dealing with death.


In Tucson each November, there is an event called the All Souls’ Procession. It’s a relative of the Mexican holiday Dia de los Muertos, but it’s a distinct and unique experience. People come together and walk through the city with floats, puppets, photos, banners. They dance, chant, drum. They paint their faces and wear costumes. There’s a giant urn. There’s a celbratory aspect, but also a solemnity. There’s a shared sense of loss and solidarity. It’s moving and remarkable.

In most of America, anxiety around death is rampant. There are huge silicon valley projects dedicated to promoting longevity. We talk about “not giving up” and “fighting.” We put 85-year-old people with failing organs on ventilators and tube feeds at great expense, both in finances and in human suffering. We use euphamisms like “passed on”.  We generally don’t think and talk about the fact that death is a presupposition of life— the thing that, by oppostion, defines it, and the place that it ends. Life and death are in this way inseperable. It’s a strain on our society, I think, to stick our fingers in our ears and ignore this.

Of course there are people who resist this tendancy to avoid thee idea death. Continue reading

A Meditation on Returning to Running

So, I’m back to running. I’m building back up slowly, but I’ve been able to get out and run almost every day that I’ve really wanted to. I had a few times where I’ve run for less time than I planned because my foot didn’t feel right, but those days have been few and far between. I’m healing.  And guess what? Running, which I missed so dearly, still sucks sometimes! Some days it’s hot and I’m tired and I can’t seem to get in a groove. But that happens to every runner, and now, I just don’t really mind. What happened?

Did being injured teach me gratitude? Yes, I’m sure, but it also gave me a lot of time to read and think. I read a lot of books about running— Running and Being (a meditative classic by George Sheehan), Ready to Run (Kelly Starrett’s owner’s manual for a running body), Run Fast (good old Hal Higdon), What I Talk About When I Talk About Running (another meditation, by Murakami). I listened to audiobooks, too, during otherwise boring sessions on the bike or elliptical: Finding Ultra, Born to Run, Natural Born Heroes, Eat & Run. I read some other, non-running books, too: Outliers (Malcolm Gladwell, who is, love him or hate him, a creative thinker), Bad Feminist (Roxane Gay), and parts of Igniting Greatness (a book that might unkindly be called “self-help” but is really about psychology and personal choice, given to me by Howie Glasser, who sets up behind me in yoga twice a week). See, I told you I had a lot of space to fill!

What books should I read next?

So yes, I learned from the experience of not running, and I learned from the things I did instead. I think I’m a better runner now. I am a little slower and I am covering fewer miles, but I think I fixed part of my running brain, or heart, or soul.

IMG_1380I’ll see you on the trail, friends!


I love a good cookbook. Especially one with lots of food-porn caliber photography. Food blogs are great (and i maintain an ever-growing Evernote notebook full of recipes clipped from blogs), but there’s something about having pages to turn and ruin with splatters that is just so appealing.

Even though I don’t categorize myself strictly as a vegan or even a vegetarian, the vast majority of my cooking is, in fact, vegan. So, the cookbooks I gravitate towards are vegan, too. And, this isn’t perhaps as obvious as it sounds— you don’t have to be a capital-V-Vegan to cook from vegan cookbooks. Srsly. So in that spirit, I’m going to review a few recently-acquired cookbooks that are full of plants-only recipes. . . but I cook ‘em for my omnivore friends all the time and it usually goes well! So I guess what I’m saying is, don’t knock it til you try it! Without further ado:

But I could never go vegan! 

  • This is a book full of what I call “trick recipes.” You look at the list of ingredients and scratch your head. Some of it sounds weird. Some of them are hard to find. But then you try it, and it’s like some kind of alchemy or magic or something. The author, Kristy Turner, is a cheesemaker-turned-vegan, and it is in these vegan cheese interpretations that she really shines. I always get disappointed when a recipe for a vegan cheese-including dish includes “vegan cheese” as an ingredient. Whomp-whomp. But none of that nonsense here! Macadamia ricotta was sweet and creamy. Cashew blue cheese was tangy and distinctly umami. Not exactly like cheese, no. But hella delicious, and certainly filling a cheese-shaped hole in lots of recipes.  Real winners from this book: Artichoke crab cakes with sriracha tarter sauce, Sunflower Sausage, and Buffalo Cauliflower Calzones. Seconds, please!
  • Caveats: Some of these are a little time consuming, and as mentioned, need some quirky ingredients (canned jackfruit in brine, kelp granules). Generally worth it, though! They also vary in their degree of healthfulness, but pretty much always outshine the standard meat/dairy versions by reducing animal fat/protein and including lots of veggies.
  • Try it if: You want to move towards a vegetarian or vegan diet at least some of the time, you like trying new things, you are afraid eating healthier food means giving up flavor.

The Plantpower Way

  • The PPW has some of the most gorgeous photography I’ve seen— partly because it’s both a “lifestyle guide” and cookbook. The food looks gorgeous, and so do Rich Roll, Julie Piatt, and their family. Rich is an athlete and podcaster, and this book includes some general discussion of “wellness” and “the journey” and “vibrations”, which might intrigue you or might annoy you. Either way, though, it’s the recipes that are the centerpiece. Unlike some other vegan cookbooks, this book doesn’t have tricks. Everything is simple, and this is by design. It’s very much real food, and relies mostly on whole foods. Sauces like  the“Fast Raw Mole” have a depth of flavor that defies their simplicity. Veggie burgers didn’t have any surprises, but came out beautifully. “Untuna Wraps” and “Aztec Enchiladas” combined basic ingredients into satisfying meals. I haven’t dipped my toe into the desserts yet, but the tarts and “cheesecakes” are calling my name. There’s also a whole section on smoothies and juices with plenty of good recommendations. Some of these, however, call for some exotic and expensive ingredients.
  • Caveats: There is some discussion of nutrition here that while generally sensible, isn’t exactly scientific. You’ll hear the alterna-health anti-gluten dogma coming through. Also, this isn’t strictly vegan— some recipes include honey, but if that bothers you you could easily substitute. Also, after look at some of the photos, you might be tempted to see if Rich and Julie will adopt you.
  • Try it if: You want to get into wellness-focused eating and need ideas and advice on how to start cooking whole foods and plant-based dishes, you like simple, tasty food, you have a little bit of earth-mother hippie-chick in you.

Happy cooking, guys!

Diet books, biohacking, n=1, and other sticky situations

I was at bookman’s the other day— a local institution/giant used bookstore. I was browsing in the health section (shocker!), and I was struck again by just how many books there are that offer “THE SOLUTION”. To anything. Everything. Drop the weight, get more energy, balance your hormones, look 10 years younger.  Whatever.


good, bad, or ugly?

If I had to give one general piece of advice to consumers of health information, it would be to step AWAY from anything that offers “THE SOLUTION”. At best, they offer some advice that may be helpful to some people. At worse, they promote dangerous practices with no basis to generalize. Continue reading